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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 02:26

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I was very sick at this time too.

But, we were locked up after school.

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Ive learnt so much.

I don,t even have a pension.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

This is soul school!.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Who then, do I blame.?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She loved him until the end.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

So whats the point in blame.

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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Would this be the day?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I waited trembling.

When she asked me how she looked .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I said to her

I couldn’t, believe it.

Especially a lifetime of it.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We all went to grammer schools

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She found it foreign!.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was scared of men, in general

Where the ultimate outsiders.

As i do to all so called friends.?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

So, i spoilt her more .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She was in good health!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He knew the spot.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I write beautiful poetry .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I will be 64.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Im still living with it.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

One cannot live in the past .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But it wasn’t much.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why did i forgive my father ?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We were not on the streets..

I could never make a relationship work though!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I have no regrets .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She married twice! .

What did i know ?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Was to survive, this bastard.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Put me off passion for life!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was seconnd youngest,

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My life is so biszare .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I think the readers, may guess!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was 9 years of age.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

All the time i was locked up.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And i lived it daily.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My family never makes their pension either.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But ive been too sick for many years..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

It was going to be , some day.

She wouldn,t have been !

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Comes on , in middle age.