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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 10:52

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She loved him until the end.

How do I get over a long-term relationship breakup?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

And i lived it daily.

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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But, we were locked up after school.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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She was in good health!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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This is soul school!.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As i do to all so called friends.?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We all went to grammer schools

Comes on , in middle age.

We were not on the streets..

Especially a lifetime of it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Put me off passion for life!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So whats the point in blame.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He knew the spot.

Would this be the day?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I waited trembling.

So, i spoilt her more .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Who then, do I blame.?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Was to survive, this bastard.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was seconnd youngest,

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was scared of men, in general

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One cannot live in the past .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Why did i forgive my father ?

I write beautiful poetry .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My life is so biszare .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She wouldn,t have been !

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But it wasn’t much.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

When she asked me how she looked .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

What did i know ?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I said to her

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was 9 years of age.

I have no regrets .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She found it foreign!.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I think the readers, may guess!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was very sick at this time too.

Im still living with it.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I will be 64.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

(And it was in our own minds.)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I don,t even have a pension.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My family never makes their pension either.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She married twice! .

I never cut or harmed myself..

It was going to be , some day.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Ive learnt so much.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

All the time i was locked up.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.